Addicted to His Pain: A Standalone Novel Page 2

  “No, but I’m ready to get lit. What do we do?” What can I say, I told you I was down for anything. Trying not to look at Auri, I waited to see how they were going to do it. He separated it into four lines. Rolling up some money, Sosa went first.

  “All you do is put this in your nose and then sniff like this.” Pulling real hard, the first line disappeared. Ready for my turn, I was a little pissed he passed it to Delow next. It was their shit, so I guess I had to wait. Doing the same thing Sosa did, his line disappeared. He barely lifted his hand to pass it to me and I was grabbing it. Leaning down, I did exactly what I saw them do. When I sniffed that shit, my whole body elevated. At least that’s what it felt like. This shit was the truth. I had never experienced a feeling like this before in my life. Wanting another hit, I was praying that Auri turned it down and said no. To my surprise, she grabbed the money from me to take her turn. The look on her face told me that she wanted to run out that room, but I guess she wanted to keep her word and not piss me off and she did it. As soon as she sniffed her line, her eyes rolled in the back of her head and she passed out. Walking over to her to make sure she was still alive and breathing, I grabbed her wrist for a pulse.

  “She alright. Everybody handle their first time different. You drink and shit, so yours didn’t affect you like that. She will come out of it in a minute.” Delow explained to me as he grabbed me to him. Taking one last glance at her to make sure she was good, I climbed on top of this fine nigga in front of me and started grinding. That coke had my ass horny as hell. Slipping my tongue in Delow mouth I released my titties from my shirt. Sosa must be as horny as us because he walked over and started grabbing my breast. I know I should have stopped him but the coke had my pussy on fire and I was loving the feeling. Standing up, I unzipped Delow’s pants and pulled his dick out. It wasn’t that big, but it had a curve to it and I was a sucker for curves. Sliding my mouth down on him, he immediately closed his eyes. Giving head wasn’t new to me, but the drugs had me on another level. Deep throating his shit every time I went down, my mouth got just as wet as my pussy. Feeling Sosa’s fingers rubbing my clit, I knew I had to be high as hell, I don’t even know when he pulled my pants down. Grinding back on him, I prayed silently that he slid his dick in sometime soon. Almost as if he knew what I was thinking, I felt his shit ripping my walls apart. I had never had a dick as big as his and I was loving it. My shit was leaking, causing me to moan as I continued to suck dick. Delow hadn’t even realized I was getting fucked until Sosa started slamming in my shit. My shit was so wet all you heard was squishing noises and ass clapping. All of a sudden Sosa pulled out and grabbed me by my head and stuck his dick in my mouth. His aggressiveness was turning me the fuck on and I wish I was talking to him instead of Auri. I needed this nigga the whole time I was here. Right as he shot his kids down my throat, he got up and went to the bathroom. Since I still hadn’t gotten my nut, I said fuck it and turned my attention back to Delow. Climbing on top of him I bounced my ass up and down on his shit as I grabbed my titties. Sosa walked back in the room and sat down. Since he was watching us, I kept my eyes on him the entire time I rode the shit out of his friend. Delow eyes were rolling in the back of his head as he screamed like a bitch. If it wasn’t for the drugs I don’t think I would have been able to nut. All I wanted was Sosa’s big ass dick in my mouth. Thinking of how he felt inside of me, I could feel my orgasm coming. Sosa never turned his eyes from me as if he was fucking me with them mother fuckers. Screaming out, I finally closed my eyes and I came all on Delow’s dick. About to get up, he grabbed me by my waist and started pounding into my pussy. Two minutes later, he pushed me up and nutted all on my face. Using my finger to wipe it off my face, I stuck my finger in my mouth and sucked it as I looked at Sosa one last time.

  “Really. Your ass is crazy.” Auri broke me from my trance and I turned my attention to her.

  “Girl your ass was knocked out. You didn’t see shit.”

  “I saw enough. Any more coke left?” I couldn’t believe my ears. I finally got my girl to liven up, but now I was praying she went back to being a square because I wanted Sosa for myself. I just had to figure out a way to get him. Hopefully she didn’t want his ass.

  CHAPTER 4- AURI

  When those drugs hit my nose, it felt like my nostrils were on fire. As it quickly worked its way down, so did the rest of my body. I couldn’t react, but the feeling was amazing. Trying my best to fight my eyes from closing, I couldn’t. The feeling was weird because I was knocked out, but I could still feel the high running through my body. When I was finally able to open my eyes, Jess ass was riding the guy we just met, like all of us wasn’t in the room. There was no way I could have sex in front of people. She must be trying to make sure Sosa wasn’t watching them, because she kept her eyes trained his way the entire time. Waiting until she was done, I finally spoke up. Needing another hit, I decided to ask if there was more. Today would be the only day I partied, so I may as well go all out.

  “Slow down ma, that shit ain’t no joke. You have to do that shit in moderation.” Sosa was letting me down easy, but I wasn’t trying to hear it. Watching Jess and Delow had me horny and my body was coming down from that feeling. I Just wanted to pass out again.

  “Trust me, today will be the only day I turn up like this.” Thinking it over, he stood up.

  “I don’t have shit else with me, but come take a ride.” Without even second guessing myself, I stood up.

  “I’ll be back Jess.” The whole room looked shock. If I was going to do it, I may as well go out with a bang. Jumping in his Lexus truck, I wondered where we were heading.

  “You know this shit ain’t cheap right? I don’t just give this shit away for free.” Happy that he was willing to give it to me I just nodded my head. We pulled up to a house and he got out of the car, staying in my seat, I thought he would run in and come back out.

  “Girl come on. Is your ass stuck or something?” Embarrassed, I quickly got out and followed him up the stairs. He walked into his bedroom and I followed closely behind him. Reaching in his drawer he pulled out another stash.

  “You sure you ready for this?” Waiting for me to answer him as I eyed the bag, I nodded.

  “Yes, I am.” Grabbing a glass mirror from under his bed, he cut up the coke and made it into four lines again. After he sniffed one I walked over ready to take my hit.

  “What you willing to do for this hit?” Looking at him to see if he was serious, I got nervous because the nigga didn’t crack a smile.

  “What do you want me to do?” Never answering me, he just started unzipping his pants. When he pulled out his meat, my eyes got big and almost popped out of my head. I had never seen a penis in person before, but I never imagined them to be that big. Grabbing my hand, he placed it on his meat. This won’t be too bad if this is all I have to do. Once he let my hand go, I continued to stroke it as I eyed the bag.

  “Put your mouth on it.” Looking horrified, I stood up not wanting to go any further.

  “I’m sorry. I have never done any of this before and I don’t want my first time to be like this.” Thinking it over, he passed me the straw to take my hit. My happy ass damn near ran to him to get it. Leaning down taking my hit, I felt the drug take effect immediately. Not passing out this time, I laid on the bed to take in all of the feelings it was doing to my body. My eyes were closed, but I could feel him looking at me. Reaching his hand under my shirt, he started rubbing my breast. I wanted to reach up and stop him, but I couldn’t. It was like I was stuck. Fully aware of what was going on, but not being able to stop it. When I felt his mouth hit my breast, his hand rubbed my clit at the same time. My mind was screaming stop, but nothing was coming out of my mouth. Once his mouth made its way down to my clit, I no longer wanted him to stop. He was taking me to heights and places I have never been. Not being able to tell if my body was actually shaking or if it was the high, but I couldn’t control my body. Lifting my legs back, he slid the tip in. I wanted to cry out in pain, b
ut he slowly worked it in. By the time it was fully in, my body was begging for it. Picking up the pace, I was now soaking wet. My body began to shake again and next thing you know fluids were squirting everywhere. I was shocked and embarrassed, but it seemed to turn him on more. Slamming his meat inside of me full force, I couldn’t do shit but lay there and take it. He slammed his shit in me for so long, pain turned to pleasure and then back to pain. My juices even dried up. He still didn’t stop, he just slid down and sucked on my clit some more until I was back wet and slammed his penis right back in me. Finally, his body started jerking and he pulled out and placed his meat at the tip of my lips.

  “Open your mouth.” I couldn’t move because I was stuck and he just shot his sperm all over my face. Laying there until I was able to move, I used his sheet and wiped it off. Looking over at him, I decided to ask.

  “Can I hit that last line?” Smiling at me and playing with his dick at the same time.

  “You gone give me some head?” I didn’t know what I was supposed to do, but I was willing to try if it was going to get me that last hit.

  “Yes.” Guiding my head to his lap, I hoped it would be over quick.

  CHAPTER 5- SOSA

  Last night I was feeling good as fuck. I know Auri has to be hooked not just on the drugs, but on a nigga’s dope dick as well. Thinking back on the shit that happened, I waited for Delow’s slow ass to get in the car. Seeing him take his time as he came out the door pissed me off.

  “Nigga hurry your ass up.” He didn’t even respond. He just kept taking his time. Ready to pull off on his ass, he finally got in the car. “What took your ass so long? I been out here thirty minutes waiting on your ass.”

  “Just drive, I’m not in the mood for your shit.” Looking over at him, I can now tell he having a bitch fit.

  “Fuck is wrong with you?” He looked at me before speaking up.

  “Why you fuck my girl? You had a bitch with you, but you just had to fuck mine.” Looking at this nigga like he done lost all his marbles I snapped.

  “Your girl? Nigga, last time I checked, we met them bitches at the same time. I was lit, I wasn’t trying to figure out which hoe was going to be mine. I don’t even want your bitch. I want the cousin. That bitch talks too much. I need a bitch that’s going to let me guide her ass. You better pull your skirt down, I can see your thongs my nigga.”

  “Fuck you and if you don’t give a fuck, I’m gone fuck your bitch.” Laughing at this nigga, I continued to drive.

  “You know how the song goes my nigga. These bitches love Sosa O end or no end. Fucking with them O boys you gone get fucked over.” Dying laughing as I rapped Love Sosa by Chief Keef, I couldn’t believe he is actually butt hurt over this bitch he doesn’t even know. Granted, she does have some good pussy, but I don’t want her ass. Pulling up on the block I was happy as fuck to see Auri standing outside. Not giving a fuck about her pops, I walked up to her gate.

  “Come here let me talk to you for a minute.” Glancing back at her window, she got up and came down the stairs.

  “Hey what’s up?”

  “Nothing much. I been thinking about you all day ma. You hanging out with me again today?”

  “I don’t think so. My head is banging and I need to study. Maybe I can catch up with you tomorrow or something.” Not one to take rejection well, I snapped.

  “The fuck you mean you don’t think so? It was all good when my dick was all down your throat and you wanted my shit.” Looking horrified she dropped her head when she spoke this time.

  “I don’t even remember doing that, but if I did then I have to accept that and move on. I have plans for my life and that is not in it. I like you, but I want to date you without all the other stuff. You didn’t even ask me out. I’m sorry if I upset you, but that is not my lifestyle.”

  “It’s not mine either. I do the shit when I want to. When I’m partying, and trying to get lit. That ain’t no shit I do every day.” Finally softening up, she kind of smiled at me.

  “You’re sexy when you are mad, but I don’t like all the hollering. You don’t need to be that way with me. We can go out, just not today. I need to recover and do some studying. Give me your number and I will call you.” Knowing I didn’t really have a choice right now, I reached in my pocket and grabbed my phone out.

  “Auri, breakfast is done.” I looked up and Jess was standing there in some booty shorts and a tank. My dick got hard just from looking at her. After we exchanged numbers I walked off to meet back up with my boys down the street. They were shooting dice and I knew I would be able to slip away for a second.

  “Delow, let me see your phone real fast. I’m trying to see if I dropped my shit in the car.” Not even looking up from the dice game, he unlocked his phone and handed it to me. Walking back to my car, I went thru his contacts and found the name I was looking for. Storing it in my shit as Hot and Ready, I hit her up.

  Me: This is Sosa, meet me in back of the house in the alley.

  Her: See you in five.

  Taking the phone back over to Delow, I kept walking and went around the block. Walking through the alley I could already see her standing there waiting on me. My dick was damn near busting out my jeans now. I know she got some fye ass pussy because I’m sober and my dick still craving her ass. Grabbing her by the hand, I led her two houses down and walked in the gang way. Not even having to say a word, I unzipped my pants and pulled my dick out.

  “I been waiting to taste this big ass dick.”

  “What you waiting on? Suck this mother fucker then.” She started licking her lips and kissing the tip of it. We didn’t have time for all of that. “Jess, stop playing with me and put this mother fucker down your throat.” Smirking like she knew something I didn’t, she swallowed this bitch whole. My knees instantly shook. This girl had a great head on her shoulders. My ass couldn’t even take it. Stopping her before I came all down her throat like a nigga ain’t had no head before, I stood her ass up and leaned her against the wall. Sliding my dick in, I went to work. Her pussy wasn’t tight like Auri shit, but she turned me on because she knew what to do with this big mother fucker. Once I broke Auri in and taught her what she needed to know, Jess was going to be a pissed off bitch with nut in her throat. Slamming my dick in her as hard as I could, I was trying to bring my nut up fast so we didn’t get caught. Thinking she was going to scream out in pain, not only did she take that shit, but she started throwing it back. No longer able to hold it, I pulled my dick out to shoot my nut on her ass, but the bitch turned around so fast she looked possessed. She wanted to catch my shit and I let her. Once all my nut was gone, she kept sucking and I had to push the bitch off me. Standing up smiling, she walked off.

  “Call me when you ready for a real bitch and you done playing with kids.” She yelled over her shoulder. I would call her ass alright, but it would only be to get my dick wet. That bitch wasn’t going to do what I wanted and once Auri stopped playing around, there was no need for Jess. Until that time came, I was going to continue to fuck her though. Bitches try to walk over real niggas and I refuse to let that happen to me again. As I walked back over to my niggas, I thought back to when I got a reality check.

  Being in love and a hood nigga at the same time was hard. Mother fuckers would try you if they thought you were soft, but I didn’t give a fuck because my girl Courtney was worth it. Or so I thought. We had been dating for a couple of months and she had my nose open. It wasn’t nothing in this world that she wanted and I didn’t give it to her. One night we were laid up and she said she wanted to try something new.

  “Baby, aren’t you tired of the same ol thing? Let’s try something different.”

  “You want me to fuck you in the ass? I’m down.” Getting excited at the thought of her tight ass hole gripping my dick.

  “Naw nigga. I’m not talking about something simple. I mean really different.” Now I’m side eying the hoe, because I’m gone beat her ass if she thinking about fucking me in my ass.

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�Fuck is you talking about?” Reaching in her purse, she pulled out a baggie. Using one of my magazines, she dumped the contents on it and made lines. “You a crack head ma?”

  “Don’t get fucked up nigga. This just heightens the sex. Trust me, you gone love it.” Willing to do anything for her, I decided I would try it once. Watching her toot the line, I got excited because she leaned her head back and started playing in her pussy. Leaning down to do my line, the shit went through my body like hot fire. My dick got so hard, it felt like it was about to bust. That was the best sex I ever had that night. When I woke up the next morning she was gone. All day, I blew her line up trying to get in touch with her, but she wouldn’t answer. I didn’t see her ass for two days and when I did, I ran into her at the store. She was in the mall shopping with another nigga.

  “Damn ma this what we on?”

  “Don’t you see I’m with somebody? Get the fuck out my face.” Shocked I damn near hit the bitch.

  “Don’t forget who the fuck I am. I’m gone give your ass some space. Holla at me later.”

  “Nigga, lose my number. Ain’t no later. I don’t do weak and you are the weakest link. I bet your bitch ass gone cry too.” She actually had the nerve to laugh. I spit in the bitch face, not because I was mad, but she was right. I wanted to cry right there, but I wasn’t gone give her ass the satisfaction. As soon as I spit, the nigga she was with hit my ass so hard, he rocked me to sleep. When I woke up, the damn paramedics was there. From that moment on, I decided I would be the one turning bitches out and fucking them over. No one would ever get the chance to do that shit to me again. I was in love with this bitch and she played my ass like call of duty. The irony of it all was, me trying to do something different to show her I loved her was the same reason she thought I was weak. This was the second time a woman I loved left me, I wasn’t gone put myself in a position for it to happen again. Love was no longer in my DNA. My momma’s death and this bitch treating me like a sucka, left me heartless and cold.